checkmate: motherly advice

I am a wee bit complicated. Ok, so sometimes, oh alright, probably a lot of the time, I am what you would call a "thinker." I even thought about it last night and decided that I often treat my life like I am playing a chess game with myself. Second guessing the outcome or results or reprocusions of certain actions and decisions... often staying a couple steps ahead of myself... "if I do this, then that will happen... and if I do that other thing, then this will happen..." Needless to say, I set myself in a whirl. And sometimes I run from certain things based on that tangent in my mind, and other times I am even left at a stand still. Nevertheless, while some actions/things in our life can benefit from such a mental exercise and because of which such a mind is praised in those environments, I have come to realize that it does not always come as a gain to be so analytical. This mental gymastics easily comes in and complicates my simplicity toward the Lord in so many matters. I forget so easily that "Touching Jesus is all that really matters..." I realized that because I tend to figure out everything, I am trusting merely in the brilliance of my mind and not simply in the Lord. What a shame.

Yesterday when I was talking to my mom about a situation that I have been doing a lot of thinking about, she told me straight up, "Emily, You really need to stop analyzing everything and just let things be."


Disclaimer: Granted there are times (believe it or not) that I do act impulsively without much consideration, so forgive me ahead of time if I do that and it has negative reprocusions.